I Was Hungry

For the last 3 weeks I have eaten 99% perfectly. Today, I messed that up big time. I eat way too many nuts, some chocolate and peanut butter. And I mean WAY too many nuts. Why……..why would I mess up all that effort and success?? Why?? Because I WAS FREAKING HUNGRY!! That’s why. Tomorrow is a brand new day, one day will not kill all my efforts. I just have to suffer through tomorrow because I’ll feel huge and in general terrible about myself. Just like I do right now, only worse. What can I learn from today?? Probably a few things, for starters I’ll learn that one day is just that, one day. One day of eating out of the norm and in larger quantities won’t kill you. It won’t make a difference in the grand scheme of things. I will also learn that eating all I eat today makes me feel shitty. Just plain shitty. Next time I want to eat all this food I will remind myself of how I felt and ask myself if it’s worth it. Maybe it will be, maybe it won’t. That will be a decision made at that moment. And until that day comes I won’t know the answer. I just hope this is the last day I have this struggle for a long long time. 

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